For those of you who don’t know, I am currently and have been writing a novel for the last year and some.
The story is meant to embody a couple of concepts, but most importantly there is the concept of “The Pursuit of Peace”. My best friend Molly introduced me to this concept two years ago and it has stuck with me ever since.
We were in Woodland cemetery in Philadelphia, sitting underneath the tall obelisk tomb and talking about our lives. The conversation of tattoos came up and Molly told me she wanted the words “Pursuit of Peace” tattooed on her ribcage. When I asked her why, she told me that in order to truly become ourselves, in order to truly live good fulfilling lives, we have to find peace. Everything we do in life is to find some sort of peace. I remember this moment as a moment of realization. “We’re on the pursuit of peace, Bel.” She told me. These words unfolded in my head.
I asked myself: What do I want from life?
Happiness, love, success, passion, fulfillment, talent, most importantly to be recognized for my writing.
I asked myself: What does it take to get these things?
Pain, sadness, discouragement, failure, self consciousness, mistakes.
It became clear to me that in order to attain everything that I wanted, I had to make peace and overcome the hard things first. I had to make peace with the fact that I couldn’t just WANT love, or happiness, or confidence, or to be a writer, I had to go and find those things and suffer for them, and take the time to heal from that suffering, to learn and make peace with it, in order to move on to the next step in reaching my ultimate goals.